Self-Doubt as an Interior Designer.
So, I am handling few projects at this moment, and I find myself getting into the momentum, but sometimes, the results don't turn out quite satisfying. Because I have embossed a certain standard on myself, it's hard to ignore that thought in the back of my head telling me "this could be better" or "this is not polished enough" or "you suck, give up, lol".
I am here to tell you that self-doubt as a designer can get you down, but don't let it.
First of all:
Perfect Doesn't Exist:
That standard I am setting for myself? It simply doesn't exist.
Even if I come across some picture or a project online that is 150% perfect (in my perspective), I look at at few days, weeks, months later and I don't feel the exact same way about it, I usually can find a thing or two that are flawed. That (omg this is literally perfection) is a teeny tiny moment in time where you are a little naive, and that's okay. Because every time you strive for a better result is building you to be the legendary designer you are simply destined to be.
Dealing With Self-Doubt:
Every time that self-doubt strikes, try to understand that it's a little part of you that is trying to keep you safe, it's that little soft spot within that is telling you "this is risky, we might fail".
Talk to it.
Like you would a little child, calm it down, make space for it, and gently take your life controller out of it's tiny hands, and get back behind the wheel.
We need fear in our life, like Elizabeth Gilbert said in her book: Big Magic "the only truly fearless people I've ever met were straight-up sociopaths and a few exceptionally reckless three-year-olds ; and those aren't good role models for anyone."
So as much as we need that fear in real life (for instant, when you are driving and trying not to get into a car crash, that is because your fear is there, and it's trying to keep you safe and sound)
But you do not need fear in your creative project.
Fear is where self-doubt stems from, and self-doubt will put you down, throw your self-esteem down the garbage, and will get you stuck in a constant rut, because it sounds something like this: "you are not good enough, give up, stop"
instead, every time it strikes, look it in the eye, and choose to be creatively confident, creatively reckless.
Put it on your headphones, tune in some good music, sketch like no one is watching, get into that part of your brain that loves what you do. And trust yourself.
Trust yourself so much and trust yourself the most, trust the time of your life, and trust your destiny. Empower Yourself, every time it strikes, tell it "I hear you, but I'm gonna choose to trust that one day, all of this will make sense, the hustle and the effort that I am putting in my work right now, might not be recognized at the moment, might not be seen by anyone, but heck, one day I'll live up to that standard in my head, someday, all of this, will pay off.
I believe in you, and I think if you care enough to read about this, then you are on the right path. Trust that you can, because you can.
All love to you,
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